Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Putrification

There can always be a bad time,
How bad is up to me,
Little things that cant buy dime,
Are the most difficult for me.

You are amidst a desert,
With nothing, but sand is sight,
You are gonna die, You have plight,
You are ready as you accept death with desert.

On another note, you are slave,
You work hard, for your master
Who threatens to leave, In the desert,
You die everyday.

The shackles that catch you,
Are too strong,
Tears cant melt them,
Nor can your prayers.

Dear God, how i wish,
there would be a heaven and hell afterlife,
For you believe in instant justice,
You made heaven and hell in this world

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Hang in there!!

My last post invited good response from the readers. I think many people connected with the theme. So, a friend of mine pinged me on gtalk and told me that i wrote well and i should keep on writing. I asked him where he is working. He told me that he was still searching for a job. I am still to start a job hunt but being a dual degree student has given me insight that road ahead is clearly not a cake walk. And even though if i get one, there is absolutely no reason that i will end up liking that. I know a senior of mine who quit MNC to join a political startup and when i talk to him now, he gets all the smile, energy that he forgot during his MNC days. I am not advising anything, i am just saying that stories, that we read in books about some dude in far off land who quit his cushioned life to follow his dreams, happens around us too.

Another friend of mine had certainly not a very pleasurable home condition. But he was focused and he  landed up in one of original 6 IITs in one of core branches. He somehow, did not like engineering very much and he got swayed into UPSC preparations. He was under the assumption that this IIT name will sufficient to get him a job. Unfortunately that does not happened and he had no job offer after his college. We talked quite a long duration during those days. He was worried about his siblings, his parents and about every damn thing that should not affect him. There was a time when he started questioning his deeds in college life and feeling guilt about not studying. Three months after he finished his college, he got a job. He is happy. He does not talk about those things now. He is back to topics of girls. ;) 

What would happen to me, is still in future. But such experience of people around me gives courage and asks just to hang in there, everything will be all right.


Sunday, October 6, 2013

Conversation

While i was waiting for a train to catch which got late by couple of hours, i met this guy Rahul. So, it started with my college tshirt which flaunted BITS. In general mass, BITS is not as popular as IITs, still its quite popular among engineering students. So, this guy stares for about 10 minutes and then comes up and strikes a conversation. Conversation started with the usual pick up line.

Rahul: Hi! You are from BITS!!

Me: Yep!! 

Rahul: Some of my friends study there. You guys have beautiful campus.

Me: We do. Thanks. I am Harsh.

Rahul: I am Rahul. I passed out this year from NIT Calicut. I work these days.

Me: That's nice. We have this internship for one year. I am doing that right now. After this placements.

Rahul: Yeah, I heard this internship helps you guys in PPO. That's very good.

Me: Yeah! thats one advantage. So, you work here in Pune.

Rahul: Yeah! I work in pune. Nice city. Though i dont like here very much.

Me: I dont hate it, but definitely dont love it. Perhaps because we came here right after college. Thats why!

Rahul: Kind of. But thats not the problem i guess. This feeling is of mysterious nature.

At this point of time, i got interested. Because some where this mysterious feeling has been bugging me for quite some time and to some friends too.

Me: What sort of mysterious feeling are you talking about?

Rahul: Like the feeling that you may have been feeling in your spare time. Like the feeling that you are not doing enough. Like you are not doing anything. Like you are wasting yourself. I dont know.....something like that...

He bloated that in one breath. I was beginning to enjoy the discussion.

Me: What else?

Rahul: You feel that too. Dont you?

Me: I guess, I do. But tell me more.

Rahul: Its the thing when you question what you have been doing all the 5 days and why the hell you are enjoying on weekends. Like you question, why the hell you are wasting your precious days, doing nothing.

Me: I thought this is because i am all alone all the days. Thats why i end up questioning everything.

Rahul: Come on! Being alone is just another dimension. Don't you feel a sudden urge of doing something and after sometimes, you feel like ohh crap! How the hell this is gonna help me and why are you wasting your time over it. And after sometimes, you end up doing nothing.

Me: So, what do you want to say?

Rahul: I dont know. Perhaps happens with everyone at our age. We think, are we born to write codes everyday and that too which is not gonna impact the world any how. And we are just doing the redundant thing which million others too everyday.

Me: So, you mean, is this urge to do something complex? 

Rahul: May be....In fact, i start every few days, to do something different. To step towards i dunno where. But it ends in 5 hours, if not than in 5 days.

Me: Right! why does not this thing came early?

Rahul: Perhaps because, we knew the path. That this is the way. Mission sort of thing. Mission: Get marks in class X. After results, Mission accomplished. Mission: Get good engineering college. After admission to good engineering college, Mission accomplished. Mission: Finish 4 years of college. After four years: Mission accomplished. But after that? What next. If your parents/ siblings/ friends are good enough, they tell you your next mission, or you may also make your new mission bu emulating someone. If not, you are open now. No direction. you wanna go in some direction, but which one? You start on a path, get bored, you stop. You are mission less. And there comes the mysterious feeling.  

Me: It does make some sense. But you have job. Why this feeling then?

Rahul: I do have a job. Pays well. But what i am doing, is it significant. It may be significant for company, but someow..i dont know...

There was announcement for train, and we had to part. 

Me: i wish we could talk more..

Rahul: Write my email id.

I approached to scheduled platform, pondering on the conversation. Applying his conditions and definitions on me. Nothing to conclude, no results.  That guy wanted to be heard. Was he explaining himself? 



Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Keeping tab on friends!

So, Yesterday i called up many friends. Pika was in some dance night. First he did not pick up and then called back saying,"darling missing you people. PP se pucha dance night hai. chalega? to wo hug diya!!" (By the way this guy has become kewl dood at IIT-B and now he hugs every girl he meets, and claiming its very social to do that. And BITS lack this culture.)

Then i called Midas. He was on some other call and did not bother to reply back. No hard feelings. I will console myself that i honored brocode for he must be busy with some real important calls from his recent friends that he has made while commuting in Delhi Metro. 

I called Suri. He too did not pick up at first. But he called back soon. I did not ask him reasons for not picking up at the first time. Since he stays at his home, reason was pretty obvious. His phone is at silent all the time. Since WhatsApp notification barely stops. Parents can go mad at that. So, We talked. We talked about Pika's expecated fun in coming days. But you know, you do not want your friend to top when you are last in class.

I called Pato. This guy did not pick up. Later he claimed that he was sleeping. That too at 9 pm. That too when next day is holiday. Well, if i were to believe grapevine, Pato tops every weekend. 

Feynman called two days back. He is now working on correlating spirituality with physics. He believes that there is indeed a connection in these two. His research title is," A novel correlation to prove the existence of God through concepts of quantum physics." He is doing some experiments at Sangam in Allahabad under one padam shri  awarded physicist and shri shri 108 chillam ji maharaj. 

I meet Koonj regularly. He has impressed CS people with his art of deduction and now he is tech lead there. Normally CS people dont make interns tech lead, so Koonj has been promoted to Senior Intern with increment in stipend by 500 INR. Koonj dedicate his success to friendly environment at his home and office.

for PP...mah lyf..mah rulezz.